starlight.sl1996 : Walqridge Plois

Hi everybody? I am a 6ft male, 28 years old, and my name is Walqridge!!!!! You can call me Walls for short. I am sharing my life experience; on behalf of starlight.sl1996! I have two of her mental disorders. Antiromanticism and gamophobia specifically! I also do not believe in love either. To me, it always felt like hostage in a death chamber and forced to bleed to death with your insides hanging on the outside. My apologies to those who were reading this and eating at the same time. Didn't mean to ruin your appetite! I just hate to see couples getting passionate with each other but not because I'm jealous or anything, so don't even go there! If I wanted a soulmate; I could've had one. I'm really good with words. Plus I have a cute face and sexy body to match it. I can get anybody I want; anytime I choose. I am extremely confident in myself. The people who love romance are not my problem. It's just romance itself! The act of kissing, cuddling, and buying gifts.... such as boxes of chocolate, flowers, teddy bears, and other sweet things. Had it not been against the law to form an assault, I would totally beat someone up; just for the sake of my romantic resentment. Anger can sometimes have a mind of it's own; especially if you repress yours; as I did growing up. I never exercised my anger. I waited until I became an adult before I retaliated! When I was little, i was always expected and told to brush off my emotions and ignore the things that bothers me because if I would've given into my angry feelings and lashed out; I was gonna get called a pussy faggot by the guys and the girls at school... Then the adults and my family would have probably confused my assertiveness with talking back or being defiant and knocked the shit out of me. Every time people disrespected me and pissed me off; I had to take it and couldn't say or do anything to defend myself. I felt like such a pushover and a bitch! But this article is not about my anger! It's about my condition; as I said before. There's nothing more horrible to experience than watching a stupid love show; while you're relaxing after a hard long day. I hate when I'm tying to clear my mind and enjoy myself and some retarded "lovey dovey" freak comes around me with their partner and start smooching and caressing each other. It's even worse when it happens right in the midst of my happy moment! And in the case of having to listen to anybody say to me after reading my blog, "You're cold hearted!" "You're the devil!" "Love is beautiful!"... All I simply ask is that you first hear me out for a second.... Let me tell my story! At the age of 13; I had to spend time in a juvenile facility, even though I was innocent! Me and my homeboy Marveeis & Cobdenn were so close that people thought we were related. Throughout most of our middle school years, Marveeis was dating a girl named Verselle; who clearly wasn't a student at our school at the time. I honestly had no problem with him seeing someone else. I was happy for him. It's just that his girlfriend liked me in a sexual kind of way. She had been coming on to me ever since the moment he introduced her to me! Every time it happened, I always blew her off!!! As soon as we were alone; she would touch and squeeze my penis through my pants. She sometimes would kiss me by force, and she sent naked pictures & videos to my phone!!!! The reason I never fell her is because I'm not the kind of person to screw other people's girlfriends. I'm too decent and loyal for that. Plus she wasn't my type anyways!!!! Verselle did a lot of inappropriate things to me whenever Marv wasn't around but one day she pushed me past the limit! I retaliated and I stood my ground. I came to his place on a Thursday afternoon during the summer break!!! We were just gonna chill, eat junk food, and watch TV together. But I might've said no if I knew she was over there.... We were all laying back relaxing and Mar said he had to use the bathroom. She started touching me in a sexual manner and I shoved her really hard until she fell on the floor. Verselle got back up and did it again. After the second time, I smack her across the face and told her I don't want you like that. Then I left the house!!! I lied to Mar and told him something important popped up. A few of weeks later; he started acting funny towards me. He wouldn't call, text, or hang out. He only kept in touch with Cobdenn!!! I even asked Cob; did he have any idea what was going on! And he was like, "No not really! I'm not sure what's his problem." Then I decided to go see Marveeis. I went to his house to talk to him. I wanted to get to the bottom of this whole situation. Which was a bad idea because before I knocked; I could hear a girl crying and I heard him yelling. He was making threats saying, "I'ma kill his ass!" "He ain't gonna get away with this!" His cousin opened the door!!! I ran to the living room and then I saw him having an anger fit. I was like, yo man! What the heck are you doing? What's wrong with you??? And Mar said, you've been messing around with my girl! She said no and you still had sex with her!!!! You raped her. I tried to explain myself. I told him, that's a damn lie. I haven't done anything to Verselle!!!! She's lying and she's mad because I'm not interested. She has been harassing me several times behind your back. And Mar started breathing heavy!!! He looked at me and said, I really wanna believe you but if this sort of thing was happening to you; why didn't you tell me right away. The fact that you waited until now. I f******* trusted you dude! You were my bro. Marveeis suddenly pulled a gun out of his pocket. I don't know where he got the gun or where it came from. I was just surprised! He never held me at gun point before!!!!! I waited 3 seconds after I demanded him to get that gun out of my face. But he kept directing it towards me! I could literally see the devil in his eyes!!! I hurried up and reached for the weapon. We started fighting with me with the gun still in his hand! Verselle crawled under the bed because the bullets were shooting all over the place. His cousin Nick ran in there and tried to break it up but one of the bullets went through his chest. And he died! His body was laying there and his blood got on the carpet. I ran out of the house and went home! I didn't wanna stay there knowing it was a murder in the house. Later on, the cops came ringing my doorbell. Claiming that I'm under arrest for murder and rape!!!! I mentioned to the police what actually between me, Mar, and Verse but nobody believed me. Not even my own parents!!!!! The experience taught me that love doesn't exist and you can't trust anyone. Everybody is out to hurt you. The whole world needs to stay single; just like starlight.sl1996! I applaud Starry for being by herself; all her life. Forget dating!!! And forget being a parent. I wouldn't dare impregnate a female and raise another human; just so they can screw someone else over. No way!!! Not letting anyone else suffer. I can't stand the youth. They need to die.